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A little Monkey goes to Heaven.....

mantispf2000

Turbo Monkey
Aug 9, 2001
1,793
243
Nevada, 2 hours from Mammoth
Hello--

Back on February 4th, our daughter went on her trip to Heaven to be with God and Jesus. My wife and I have been in a complete fog since, as tomorrow marks her 2-month "anniversary" of leaving us. We still don't know what happened, as we're waiting for test results to come back. I mean, she got sick like most kids do, we took her to the doc's and did what he said to do, I got home at 4 a.m., my wife and I fell asleep with her between us at 5 a.m., and my wife woke me up at 7 a.m. saying something was wrong. I tried CPR, but it didn't work.

Now I have her Trek Mountain Cub bike in our garage, and her bike seat on my C-dale, just sitting collecting dust. Work is hard, my wife hasn't worked since, and we're feeling quite alone. We have some parts to sell, as we're in need of $$$ for living/bills. Check out the part forum, and thanks for your support.
 

Serial Midget

Al Bundy
Jun 25, 2002
13,053
1,896
Fort of Rio Grande
I feel for you and your wife, my sister lost 2 boys to SIDS and it had a huge impact on the intire family. Things will get better in time, for now I wish you all the best.
 

laura

DH_Laura
Jul 16, 2002
6,259
15
Glitter Gulch
i am so sorry. i can not imagine how that would feel but i have always felt that it would be the hardest thing in the world to go through. my thoughts are with you.
 

mantispf2000

Turbo Monkey
Aug 9, 2001
1,793
243
Nevada, 2 hours from Mammoth
Thank you all for your kind words, and for posting the link to my sale thread.

Well, today my wife and I went to get a garden pinwheel for our daughter's site, and found one that's pink and has a girl angel on it with a rainbow and bird. It was so difficult to place it at her site, yet by watching it spin, it tells us that she's with us.

I'd like to share a couple of mtb times spent with her. We've taken her to both Sea Otter and Mammoth to watch her brother race. When we'd be driving to Monterey, she'd say, "When are we going to see the otters?" It would make us laugh. Then, while at Mammoth, we'd have to go to the main lodge so we could take our pics by the mammoth statue there. In fact, the statue was always referred to as "our buddy". On one visit, we bought her a stuffed mammoth to sleep with. Well, we placed "Buddy" with her for her eternal rest. We wonder if she's playing with all the mammoths in Heaven.

Sorry, gotta go cry a bit. Once again, thanks.
 

N8 v2.0

Not the sharpest tool in the shed
Oct 18, 2002
11,003
149
The Cleft of Venus
I have a daughter... when I see her tonight I will give her a huge hug and a tummy tickle just because....

Deepest condolences...

-N8

:(
 

ghostrider

7034 miles, still no custom title
Jan 6, 2003
964
1
Shadows of Mt Boney, CA.
I was thinking along the same lines as N8. I feel stupid worrying about all the dumb stuff I worry about (what bike should I buy, whether my DSL is up or down) when all that really matters is I have a beautiful daughter that means the world to me, and every second I have with her is a gift to cherish. I can't wait to see her tonight and I'll give her a big ol' hug.

Please share more memories of your daughter, and maybe some pics, as you feel up to it.
 

cliffster5

In dog years I'm dead
Aug 23, 2001
331
1
Salinas, CA
I am so so sorry for your loss. You have my deepest sympathies and prayers for peace and comfort to help you in your sorrow.
 

arcteryx33

Chimp
Mar 20, 2002
34
0
Philly PA
I fell for you loss. Just two days ago a friend of mind and a close friend of my little brother ened his life. I watched him grow up and was a leader in Boy Scouts. I hekped him with all his merits and drove him home after each meeting. He only lived a few houses down across the street. Im now finsihing up college and I hear the news from home thathat his mother had found him in the garage. He had hung himself from the rafter. He was only 18 and graduating in 2 months. He never seemed like he had any emotional problems but he was very quiet. Came from a very healthy family lifestyle and had two older sisters, one who was in my high school graduation class. Maybe holding everything in is what did it, I dont know. Just lets you know how important it is to have someone to talk to. RIP Steve. :( :( :(
 

mantispf2000

Turbo Monkey
Aug 9, 2001
1,793
243
Nevada, 2 hours from Mammoth
With the help of our neighbor, I had our Kodak disc re-formatted to jpg, so here's a pic of our angel. It's true, your whole perspective of what's important changes. What's funny, is that in the casino where I work, my tolerance level of "f-bombs" has gone way down. I mean, I have one of those angel pins on my shirt, and I feel that our daughter can "hear" what others are saying, and I don't want her to hear those words. I'm talking with the folks at Granny Gear, trying to see if I can do their Tahoe event solo with her bike seat on my bike in her memory. Question-- why would they need my resume??
 

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ghostrider

7034 miles, still no custom title
Jan 6, 2003
964
1
Shadows of Mt Boney, CA.
Originally posted by mantispf2000
I'm talking with the folks at Granny Gear, trying to see if I can do their Tahoe event solo with her bike seat on my bike in her memory. Question-- why would they need my resume??
This is a great idea. Let us know how this goes, and if we need to let Granny Gear know we feel. Regarding the resume, I'm guessing they want to make sure there are no total beginners out there trying to do a solo 24 hr race. Just make some stuff up if you have to.
 

llkoolkeg

Ranger LL
Sep 5, 2001
4,329
5
in da shed, mon, in da shed
...ever read. I am going to leave work early and pedal home just as fast as I can. I have a little girl at home who will be hugged tighter and longer tonight than she would otherwise prefer. Thanks for sharing your story and may God bless your family.
 

mantispf2000

Turbo Monkey
Aug 9, 2001
1,793
243
Nevada, 2 hours from Mammoth
And once again, I have to thank all of you for your words of support. Before I started typing this reply, I started to break down. I mean, we're told when someone goes to Heaven, they're in a better place. But as our neighbor said (a wonderful lady that took control of the church arrangements/etc for us), what's wrong with this place? Or as I feel, I thought the best place was in Mommy's and Daddy's arms?? I look at her picture I posted, and just break down. Why did God take her???????

But now for some good news. I sent my "resume" to Cheryl at Granny Gear, and I've been accepted for Tahoe!!! Fun poll time--

How many laps should I shoot for???

1-- Though my wife has 3 kids from a previous marriage, Alaina was our only daughter (but a $300 lap?? I think not), or

3- She was our third daughter, or

4- She was our 4th child, 4 years old, and went to Heaven on the 4th (of Feb), or

5- She'd be 5 just before the event, or

6- It'll be six months since she left, or

8- She was born in August (8th month).

I think anything beyond 8 will be a dream and over-zealous of me.

Well, I have some folks to call about supplies, so until we meet again.
 

ghostrider

7034 miles, still no custom title
Jan 6, 2003
964
1
Shadows of Mt Boney, CA.
Go for 8 (that's "only" two laps every 6 hours) - the more the better. I'm hoping to ride in that race, and if I do, I'll be looking for a Cannondale with a child seat on the back, with a Mammoth toy strapped in for the ride. Make sure you have that seat bolted on super-tight. Also, FYI, if you get a copy of the latest Outside magazine, there is a good article in there about the 24 of Tahoe.
 

Tyler

Chimp
Feb 20, 2003
15
0
I am sorry to hear that man. She was such a cute little girl. My thought and prayers go out to you and your wife.

AC1_Rider
 

FlipSide

Turbo Monkey
Sep 24, 2001
1,376
804
My eyes are all wet from reading this thread! I'm profoundly sorry to read this...:(

She looked like an adorable little girl...

I don't know what to say...sorry! Just be strong and good luck for the race!
 

zibbler

Monkey
I just read this thread, and I must say my heart is broken. As a mother of 3, the thought of anything happening to my kids scares me. I'm so sorry for your loss. May God bless you and help you through this time of grief. :(
 

Lucee

govenor
Jan 16, 2002
284
0
nor cal
She was so beautiful, I'm sorry. I won't mouth platitudes, but here's another monkey sending you some positive thoughts.
Good luck in Tahoe!
 

mantispf2000

Turbo Monkey
Aug 9, 2001
1,793
243
Nevada, 2 hours from Mammoth
Hey All--

Well, some "good" news-- I finally made it official by registering for the 24 Hours of Tahoe. YYIIPPPEEE!!! I'm still tossed up about the number of laps to do. The front-runners are 4, 5, or 8, though like I told Ghostrider, while visiting our daughter one day, she told me I should do her birthday-- 13 (8-14, which is 8+1+4=13). Granted, yes, I will have those extra legs helping me along, but hey, I'm still in the process of building up my base miles before putting in the really long mileage days. By the way, for events like these, why do riders use stuff like Vaseline in their shorts?? Keep the responses clean. Remember, Alaina's still reading these with me.

You Monkeys are great!!!
 

Repack

Turbo Monkey
Nov 29, 2001
1,889
0
Boston Area
I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you must be going through. Best of luck at Tahoe.

There is a product made called Chamois Butt-er (spelling?) available at bike shops that helps reduce saddle sores. I have never used it but know people who swear by it.
 

Knuckleslammer

took the red pill
Sorry to her about your daughter. I can't imagine living without my girl. It's been real tough since her mom and I split up. I feel a bit of loss. I hate hearing about stuff like that. You will see her again. I love my kid and until you have a kid, your sense of worth in this life is somewhat unknown. Since Sabina was born, I have something to live for. Good luck. This was taken a year ago. She doesn't even look like the same kid anymore now. I can't believe how fast they grow up.
 

SK6

Turbo Monkey
Jul 10, 2001
7,586
0
Shut up and ride...
Our family's prayers are with you. I wish I could say something profound. But I can't.

Just know an angel like her is with God in a better place. I can only hope that if I have a guardian angel, I pray it's her.