suicide is the answer

Maybe its the current culture in AZ, maybe its the locals are cunts, but they are really touchy these days over on empty beer... Some mother fvckers have no humor... So I don't like people who can't drive, people who can't park, or certain racial groups who think that I should care about...

Please tell me this is the tail end of most of the misery. I feel like absolute garbage. I can't focus, I can't even sit down and watch TV. I'm like sweating a little, shaking. Terrible sleep. I'm doing like a gram of vitamin C every few hours, plenty of water, fireballs which are killin...

Right now I am on this whole running/eating right/not consuming like the last of the Roman Emperors sort of thing. Down 20 pounds in 2 months, 35 more to go. But I like to drink. No, scratch that, I love drinking. It makes me sleep better. Couple drinks and I am out like a baby with a tit in...