I'm having a hard time this year,actually the last few weeks,coming to the realization that Im not really gonna be able to afford to race the way I want to.
I do /did like going to some of the bigger races unlike some of you who prefer the smaller,local type stuff.
But being self employed has it's benefits as well as it's downsides.The economic down turn has put such lack of confidence in my day to day stuff, that I can't really justify the cost of getting to races.Believe me,I've tried to.But what's weird is as soon as that happens,I completely have lost interest in riding altogether.Anybody else do that?
Yesterday,I went to do shuttles,out of obligation,I guess.I thought I'd try and get ready for Fontana,which I've never done and know I would suck at,because I'm not gonna be able to do the race I wanted to in washigton in April .
Well,my head/heart wasn't in it,and we were on this xc hike a bike section and since the 951 bb is too low,I wacked the pedal and it sent me off the left side of the bike ,where I dislocated my knee that has no Acl.It popped back into place ,hurt like a MF'r and is gimpy today.
So,in short global banking corruption has taken my will to ride and dislocated my knee.I gotta admit, I'm kinda lost,here.I think about how great stuff was 10 years ago,when I was even slower.But going to races and getting my butt handed to me was great motivation.It's just not enough for me to be the fastest guy on our hill,or to look at the pretty flowers on a trail ride.
Sorry for the long post,but this is a major thing for me to mull over.And as you know,you can't talk to "normal"people about this stuff.
I do /did like going to some of the bigger races unlike some of you who prefer the smaller,local type stuff.
But being self employed has it's benefits as well as it's downsides.The economic down turn has put such lack of confidence in my day to day stuff, that I can't really justify the cost of getting to races.Believe me,I've tried to.But what's weird is as soon as that happens,I completely have lost interest in riding altogether.Anybody else do that?
Yesterday,I went to do shuttles,out of obligation,I guess.I thought I'd try and get ready for Fontana,which I've never done and know I would suck at,because I'm not gonna be able to do the race I wanted to in washigton in April .
Well,my head/heart wasn't in it,and we were on this xc hike a bike section and since the 951 bb is too low,I wacked the pedal and it sent me off the left side of the bike ,where I dislocated my knee that has no Acl.It popped back into place ,hurt like a MF'r and is gimpy today.
So,in short global banking corruption has taken my will to ride and dislocated my knee.I gotta admit, I'm kinda lost,here.I think about how great stuff was 10 years ago,when I was even slower.But going to races and getting my butt handed to me was great motivation.It's just not enough for me to be the fastest guy on our hill,or to look at the pretty flowers on a trail ride.
Sorry for the long post,but this is a major thing for me to mull over.And as you know,you can't talk to "normal"people about this stuff.