I was recently diagnosed with Gout. For those of you unfamiliar with this particularly ugly disease, it is an intense, painful form of arthritis that is brought on by several things, one of those being excessive beer consumption. It causes painful attacks by forming uric acid crystals in the joints. My first major flare up was last summer and I could barely walk. I ended up at the doctors office in a wheel chair. It is without a doubt the worst pain I have ever felt. It makes a dislocated shoulder feel like a paper cut. After many months of seeing multiple doctors and specialists it's official, I have an old man's disease. I was 39 years old when I developed it.
This is something that I have to live with and there is no cure, only treatment. Although it won't kill me, It can rob me of my mobility and cause permanent damage to my joints. It has been a struggle to say the least. I have had to make some serious lifestyle changes.
On July 24, 2008, I drank my last beer. I have been a daily drinker for close to twenty years. Having Gout is like being given the choice between walking and drinking. I chose walking. I have not had a drop of alcohol in 8.5 months. And yet have had 5 flare-ups since. The last one lasted 3.5 weeks and felt like I had broken glass underneath my knee cap. Needless to say I have not been able to ride much.
I quit drinking cold turkey and have done it without rehab or counciling. I found fear to be highly motivating. If I drink, I won't be able to walk.
For the most part I have just hid out in my studio not knowing what to do with myself socially. Last Saturday I went to a break dance competition because I knew there was going to be a woman, whom I'm interested in, there. And of course there were people drinking beer. That part doesn't bother me so much as I'm still a drunk at heart and hold no ill will towards those who choose to imbibe.
However, I felt very uncomfortable being there without a beer in my hand and the social crutch of alcohol. I just don't know how to go out and be social without drinking. I have absolutely no idea.
My question is, how do I do this without drinking ? I spoke to a friend last night who has been going to AA for many years and he suggested that I attend a meeting and that it could help with the whole living without booze thing. I have some reservations because or the religious overtones to AA. Do they talk up the God thing as much as I fear they do or will I be able acquire the tools necessary to cope with aftermath of putting down the bottle ?
Some insight from other non-drinking AA Monkeys would be appreciated. Please keep in mind that I do not want to turn this into a religious discussion.
- Thanks
This is something that I have to live with and there is no cure, only treatment. Although it won't kill me, It can rob me of my mobility and cause permanent damage to my joints. It has been a struggle to say the least. I have had to make some serious lifestyle changes.
On July 24, 2008, I drank my last beer. I have been a daily drinker for close to twenty years. Having Gout is like being given the choice between walking and drinking. I chose walking. I have not had a drop of alcohol in 8.5 months. And yet have had 5 flare-ups since. The last one lasted 3.5 weeks and felt like I had broken glass underneath my knee cap. Needless to say I have not been able to ride much.
I quit drinking cold turkey and have done it without rehab or counciling. I found fear to be highly motivating. If I drink, I won't be able to walk.
For the most part I have just hid out in my studio not knowing what to do with myself socially. Last Saturday I went to a break dance competition because I knew there was going to be a woman, whom I'm interested in, there. And of course there were people drinking beer. That part doesn't bother me so much as I'm still a drunk at heart and hold no ill will towards those who choose to imbibe.
However, I felt very uncomfortable being there without a beer in my hand and the social crutch of alcohol. I just don't know how to go out and be social without drinking. I have absolutely no idea.
My question is, how do I do this without drinking ? I spoke to a friend last night who has been going to AA for many years and he suggested that I attend a meeting and that it could help with the whole living without booze thing. I have some reservations because or the religious overtones to AA. Do they talk up the God thing as much as I fear they do or will I be able acquire the tools necessary to cope with aftermath of putting down the bottle ?
Some insight from other non-drinking AA Monkeys would be appreciated. Please keep in mind that I do not want to turn this into a religious discussion.
- Thanks