Need to come clean with this, the booze is not the problem, have not had a drink since november of 2004, only need one blackout to get the message there. The last few days I have really been down on myself, been really doubting myself. Been having family problems, my sister was attacked by someone I fended off before, I feel like I failed as in letting her down. The person who beat her was this guy who was trying to get her to be his girlfriend and who has emotional issues. Was trying to hide it with the booze but I guess I kin of blown it wide open Sunday night. I humbly appologize to anyone I have offended during these past few days. Where do I go from here, I know I need to search my soul with this whole ordeal.