I post on this forum occasionally under a different name. Didn't really feel like revealing it though.
So, I've been seeing this girl for a while, 10 months or so. We haven't been able to see each other much for the past few months and it's been pretty frustrating.
I caught up with her at a pub last Friday. Things started well, we danced and talked for a bit. I don't remember anything after this point, everything I know came from other people.
Then I started groping her and wouldn't stop. I did and said some really horrible things. Dunno what they were. Apparently I had to be pulled off her, I shoved her friend and caused a scene. God knows what else I did.
I'm scared that I am capable of this, I've never done anything remotely like it before. I can't help but wonder what may have happened if I hadn't been pulled away from her.
I'm not sure what I really expect to get out of posting here but I felt like talking. I don't know what to do. I'm scared of myself, and scared of drinking now. I want help, I think, but don't know where to start.
So, I've been seeing this girl for a while, 10 months or so. We haven't been able to see each other much for the past few months and it's been pretty frustrating.
I caught up with her at a pub last Friday. Things started well, we danced and talked for a bit. I don't remember anything after this point, everything I know came from other people.
Then I started groping her and wouldn't stop. I did and said some really horrible things. Dunno what they were. Apparently I had to be pulled off her, I shoved her friend and caused a scene. God knows what else I did.
I'm scared that I am capable of this, I've never done anything remotely like it before. I can't help but wonder what may have happened if I hadn't been pulled away from her.
I'm not sure what I really expect to get out of posting here but I felt like talking. I don't know what to do. I'm scared of myself, and scared of drinking now. I want help, I think, but don't know where to start.